In short, she was the ultimate tease and I just couldn’t grasp the reason why Miles (or Pudge, take your pick; it’s always nice to know your options) would be head over heels for this obviously emotionally imbalanced person.
I’ve recently finished reading John Green’s “Looking for Alaska”. One thing I’ve realized from reading countless of fiction is that most of the time, a good story involves good characterization. Thus, yes, the story was good. The female lead the book was named after for didn’t go well with me though. There was something wrong, or rather, not right with Alaska and it was so annoying how the other characters kept trying to “find” her. For me personally, she wasn’t worth the trouble.
Why, though? I’d ask myself and my reply would be to attack her insensitivity (or is it more of sheer lack of wit? But she reads so well …) and an eyebrow raised at her incessant so-called “not flirting” with all the lead male characters. In short, she was the ultimate tease and I just couldn’t grasp the reason why Miles (or Pudge, take your pick; it’s always nice to know your options) would be head over heels for this obviously emotionally imbalanced person. Yes, she was hot. Yes, she was fun to be with when she’s in a good mood but my God, she keeps on playing with his emotions! I don’t care if she never “meant” to but she did.
Of course, being the overthinking me, I saw this flash of annoyance as an avenue for psychoanalyzing myself (of course). Why was I annoyed at her … shortcoming? Because she was inconsistent and, as I said before, insensitive. You see, there’s a fine line between not giving a damn what people think of you and being downright insensitive. The latter involves another party, and in this particular story, it’s a high school kid who would do anything to make her look his way. It’s just so sad to watch and I hate her for being such a tease: telling him he’s cute but too bad because she’s so in love with her boyfriend. I mean, COME ON, what would a guy expect to think after he hears his crush say that? Well yes, us girls probably have had the same thought sometimes but we never actually say it out loud to the guy’s face. A little bit of tact here, please.
Come to think of it, she’s kind of like the female version of the resident bad boy with the broken family, hurtful past, and nobody-really-understands-me aura.
And then I started thinking, what if it was reversed? What if Alaska was a guy, would I still feel annoyed? Why, yes, definitely. But with a little bit of longing/hope (in that particular order). Come to think of it, she’s kind of like the female version of the resident bad boy with the broken family, hurtful past, and nobody-really-understands-me aura. Of course girls thrive on the idea that they’re the ones who could “heal” the hot and bothered bad boy. I guess it goes the same way with guys: getting the girl who wouldn’t give boys the time of day and making her smile. But then I’m pretty sure the annoyance will overcome the longing/hope if ever the book had a boy-Alaska instead seeing as this is what happens when I encounter “bad boys” in real life. I stay away from them. Once again, I ask myself, Why, Ara? Why?
Because I can’t deal with those kinds of people. Those too broken.
You might think it sounds mean. I know it is. I think the shortcoming, in the end, is on me because I’m not dumb enough, optimistic enough, or strong enough to handle the brokenness. I just can’t.